Lyrics

Did I ever really love you
Or were you just my escape
I covered up my losses
With the promises you'd make

Did you ever really know me
Or did you just see my pain
Instead of pulling me up
Oh, you let me share your grave

The crowd around was chanting
Let him go
But anxious arms-up love is all I know

I don't want stable
I don't want certain
Need me and tell me the ways that you're hurting
I'll be so careful
Each day I'm learning
To live with as little as I am deserving
You don't have to cover my eyes
Or make up elaborate lies
I'll believe you
I'll still need you

Did I ever truly have you
Or were you not really home
The only time you told me
Was when I tried to let go

No, you never really claimed me
But you knew that I'd stay yours
Each time you'd come back knocking
I'd been waiting at the door

The crowd around was chanting
Let him go
But sick surrender love is all I know

I don't want stable
I don't want certain
Miss me and tell me the ways that you're hurting
Sit at the table
Feast on your burden
I'll wake up reaching for you in the morning
You don't have to cover my eyes
Or make up elaborate lies
I'll believe you
I'll still need you

The blood in the water
Yeah, it's getting hard to ignore
Repeatedly caught
Her existence in cracks on the floor
You're laying me down
Half-consume me then leave through the door
And I'm left in pieces
I'm not what you want anymore

Did you ever really love me
Or was I just always there
To pick up the phone when you're lonely
To make you feel like someone cared

Wish you were stable
Wish you were certain
Wish I could stop letting you cause me hurt
Instead it's a fable
All of me worsens
The more that I fantasize ways we could work
It takes so much to open my eyes
You told such elaborate lies
I believed you
I still need you